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\u00a0 \u201cN\u00ebnat jan\u00eb qeniet m\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtira p\u00ebr t\u2019u kuptuar\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n Ismail Kadare<\/p>\n Fragment nga vepra \u201cKukulla\u201d e shkrimtarit Ismail Kadare.<\/p>\n N\u00eb prill t\u00eb vitit 1994, im v\u00eblla na lajm\u00ebroi nga Tirana se n\u00ebna ishte duke dh\u00ebn\u00eb shpirt.<\/p>\n U nis\u00ebm t\u00eb dy me Helen\u00ebn, me avionin e par\u00eb nga Parisi, me shpres\u00eb p\u00ebr ta gjetur ende gjall\u00eb. N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ishte ende n\u00eb jet\u00eb, por nuk kuptonte asgj\u00eb. Ndodhej n\u00eb koma, n\u00eb apartamentin e emt\u00ebs sime, n\u00eb rrug\u00ebn \u201cQemal Stafa\u201d, ku e kishin \u00e7uar disa jav\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb, p\u00ebr ta pasur m\u00eb mir\u00eb n\u00eb kujdes.<\/p>\n Kush\u00ebriri im i par\u00eb, Besnik Dobi, njeriu q\u00eb e kishte \u00e7uar n\u00eb krah\u00eb gjer tek e motra, pasi m\u00eb shpjegoi perse e kishte parap\u00eblqyer at\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb bartjeje, p\u00ebr nj\u00eb distance aq t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr, nga Rruga e Dibr\u00ebs te fillimi i \u201cQemal Stafes\u201d, shtoi fjal\u00ebt: Ve\u00e7 k\u00ebsaj, ajo ishte tep\u00ebr e leht\u00eb.<\/p>\n N\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekje p\u00ebr t\u00eb sqaruar di\u00e7ka m\u00eb tep\u00ebr, ai p\u00ebrs\u00ebriti pak a shum\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb: e pabesueshme, sa e leht\u00eb ishte! Do t\u00eb thosha prej letre.<\/p>\n Si nj\u00eb kukull prej letre.<\/p>\n S\u2019isha i sigurt n\u00ebse fjal\u00ebt e fundit ishin t\u00eb tijat, apo isha une q\u00eb i kisha menduar, por pata ndjesin\u00eb se nuk u habita fort. Thua se t\u00eb gjitha ato q\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja i dija nd\u00ebrkaq.<\/p>\n Nj\u00eb sken\u00eb e njohur, e p\u00ebrs\u00ebritur shpeshher\u00eb n\u00eb banes\u00ebn ton\u00eb, kur vajzat tona loznin kukullash me n\u00ebn\u00ebn, m\u00eb kaloi n\u00ebp\u00ebr mend. E durueshme rrinte midis tyre nd\u00ebrsa ato i vinin n\u00eb flok\u00eb gjithfar\u00eb fjongosh e karficash, pa harruar t\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebrisnin: \u201cn\u00ebn\u00eb, mos l\u00ebviz!\u201d.<\/p>\n Helen\u00ebs, merrej me mend q\u00eb i vinte zor nga nj\u00eb pamje e till\u00eb, por vajzat nuk bindeshin. N\u00ebna s\u2019thot\u00eb asgj\u00eb, p\u00ebrs\u00ebrisnin. Asaj i p\u00eblqen, \u00e7\u2019ke ti?<\/p>\n E leht\u00eb. Shkall\u00ebt prej druri t\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb, zakonisht t\u00eb ndjesh me, nuk k\u00ebrcisnin kurr\u00eb nga e shkelura e saj. Sepse ashtu si hapat, \u00e7do gj\u00eb e kishte t\u00eb leht\u00eb: veshjen, t\u00eb folur\u00ebn, psher\u00ebtim\u00ebn.<\/p>\n N\u00eb lagje, e m\u00eb pas n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, kishim m\u00ebsuar gjith\u00eb ato vjersha p\u00ebr n\u00ebn\u00ebn. Kishte gjithashtu vjersha, madje dhe nj\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00eb p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb s\u2019kishin t\u00eb till\u00eb, ku fjal\u00ebt pa n\u00ebn\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebriteshin n\u00eb at\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb q\u00eb ta k\u00ebpusnin shpirtin. Nuk dija ndonj\u00eb nga shok\u00ebt e klas\u00ebs q\u00eb t\u00eb mos kishte n\u00ebn\u00eb, ose ndoshta kishte t\u00eb till\u00eb, por nuk e tregonin. Sipas nj\u00eb shokut ton\u00eb, t\u00eb mos kishe n\u00ebn\u00eb ishte turp, gj\u00eb q\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, nga klasa B., e kund\u00ebrshtonte ngaq\u00eb, sipas tij, turp ishte t\u00eb mos kishe baba. Dy nga shoqet tona, Ylberja me Ela Labovitin, qeshnin me t\u00eb dy, ngaq\u00eb, sipas tyre, jo vet\u00ebm ngat\u00ebrronin fjal\u00ebn \u201cturp\u201d me \u201cm\u00ebshir\u00eb\u201d, por nuk kuptonin asgj\u00eb nga ato q\u00eb flisnin.<\/p>\n Sidoqoft\u00eb, puna e n\u00ebn\u00ebs nuk ishte kaq e thjesht\u00eb, dometh\u00eb n\u00eb mjaftonte ta kishe, se t\u00eb tjerat s\u2019kishin r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi. Mund t\u00eb k\u00ebndoje gjith\u00eb dit\u00ebn n\u00ebn\u00eb e dashur, n\u00ebna ime, m\u00eb e mira n\u00eb bot\u00eb, sa er\u00eb e mir\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb vjen, e trululu e tralala, e prap\u00eb t\u00eb mos ishe i k\u00ebnaqur. Disa, pavar\u00ebsisht se nuk e thoshin, m\u00ebrziteshin, ngaq\u00eb, n\u00eb krahasim me t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt, n\u00ebnat e tyre iu dukeshin jo fort t\u00eb reja, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos th\u00ebn\u00eb plaka. Por as kjo s\u2019dukej ndonj\u00eb hata n\u00eb krahasim me rastin e shkoll\u00ebs s\u00eb lagjes fqinje, ku kishte jo nj\u00eb, por dy n\u00ebna t\u00eb ndara nga burrat. Ose rasti i Pano X., q\u00eb erdhi duke qar\u00eb, ngaq\u00eb, rrug\u00ebs p\u00ebr n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb, dikush i kishte th\u00ebn\u00eb \u201cbir i kurv\u00ebs\u201d, dhe nuk u qet\u00ebsua ve\u00e7se kur Ylberja me Ela Labovitin i kishin shpjeguar se kjo s\u2019do t\u00eb thoshte asgj\u00eb dhe se ata q\u00eb p\u00ebrdomin at\u00eb fjal\u00eb me \u201ck\u201d p\u00ebr n\u00ebnat e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve, mund ta kishin vet\u00eb miz\u00ebn n\u00ebn k\u00ebsul\u00eb.<\/p>\n Shum\u00eb shpejt do ta kapja se un\u00eb gjithashtu kisha nj\u00eb problem me n\u00ebn\u00ebn, por ai ishte tep\u00ebr larg nga ato q\u00eb p\u00ebrmenda. Kishte t\u00eb b\u00ebnte kryesisht me leht\u00ebsin\u00eb, me at\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb pas do t\u00eb m\u00eb dukej si ana prej letre apo prej gipsi e saj. N\u00eb fillim turbull, pastaj p\u00ebrher\u00eb e m\u00eb qart\u00eb po kuptoja se ato q\u00eb pothuajse nuk mungonin kurr\u00eb n\u00eb vjershat dhe k\u00ebng\u00ebt p\u00ebr n\u00ebnat: qum\u00ebshti, gjiri, aroma, ngroht\u00ebsia e am\u00ebsis\u00eb, s\u2019e kisha leht\u00eb t\u2019i gjeja tek ime m\u00eb.<\/p>\n S\u2019ishte pun\u00eb ftoht\u00ebsie. Dhembshuria e saj ndihej q\u00eb larg. Kujdesi gjithashtu. Mungesa ishte gjetk\u00eb dhe, si\u00e7 do ta kuptoja m\u00eb von\u00eb, kishte t\u00eb b\u00ebnte me penges\u00ebn e shfaqjes, e kap\u00ebrcimit t\u00eb nj\u00eb pragu q\u00eb, me sa dukej, ajo e kishte t\u00eb pamundur.<\/p>\n Shkurt, qysh her\u00ebt e kam ndier se n\u00ebna ime, m\u00eb shum\u00eb se atyre t\u00eb vjershave, i ngjante nj\u00eb lloj vizatimi apo skicimi, prej t\u00eb cilit nuk dilte dot. Edhe bardh\u00ebsia e fytyr\u00ebs s\u00eb saj, sidomos kur vinte sqafill, si\u00e7 ia kishte m\u00ebsuar Kako Pinoja, stolis\u00ebsja e famshme e nuseve t\u00eb Gjirokastr\u00ebs, sht\u00ebpia e s\u00eb cil\u00ebs ishte pothuajse ngjitur me ton\u00ebn, pra, edhe bardh\u00ebsia e saj kishte ngrirjen dhe moskuptimin prej maske. M\u00eb pas, kur gjat\u00eb nj\u00eb udh\u00ebtimi n\u00eb Japoni do t\u00eb shihja p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb nj\u00eb shfaqje t\u00eb teatrit tabuki, bardh\u00ebsia e fytyrave t\u00eb aktoreve do t\u00eb m\u00eb dukej si di\u00e7ka e njohur. Ishte e nj\u00ebjta e fsheht\u00eb si ajo e n\u00ebn\u00ebs sime, nj\u00eb mister prej kukulle, por pa tmerr.<\/p>\n N\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin stil, si n\u00eb filmat vizatimor\u00eb, ishin lot\u00ebt e saj. N\u00eb shumic\u00ebn e rasteve nuk e kisha kuptuar arsyen e tyre. Ashtu si\u00e7 nuk e kuptoja dot se si ishte e mundur q\u00eb vite me radh\u00eb nuk e kisha ndier kurr\u00eb t\u00eb hynte a t\u00eb dilte n\u00eb tualet, thua se nuk shkonte kurr\u00eb atje.<\/p>\n N\u00ebnat jan\u00eb qeniet m\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtira p\u00ebr t\u2019u kuptuar, m\u00eb thoshte gjat\u00eb nj\u00eb darke n\u00eb Paris Andrei Voznjesenski. Ishim t\u00eb ftuar t\u00eb dy me Helen\u00ebn tek Alain Bosquet, kur, midis t\u00eb tjerash, e pyeta di\u00e7ka p\u00ebr ca vargje t\u00eb tij q\u00eb kishin b\u00ebr\u00eb buj\u00eb, t\u00eb shkruara n\u00eb trajt\u00eb gjysm\u00eb anagrami. Midis tyre ishte nj\u00eb varg ku fjala n\u00ebn\u00eb, rusisht mat (shoq\u00ebruar me shenj\u00ebn zbut\u00ebse), p\u00ebrs\u00ebritej tri her\u00eb: Matmatm\u00fct, kurse her\u00ebn e kat\u00ebrt ishte vet\u00ebm gjysma e saj ma, e cila n\u00eb fund t\u00eb vargut, duke u bashkuar me shkronj\u00ebn \u201ct\u201d t\u00eb mat (n\u00ebn\u00ebs) s\u00eb fundit, jepte fjal\u00ebn tma, q\u00eb do t\u00eb thoshte terr.<\/p>\n Voznjesenski n\u00eb at\u00eb dark\u00eb ishte n\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb shpirt\u00ebrore, \u00e7ka m\u2019u duk se ndikonte n\u00eb shpjegimin e vargjeve. Ka qen\u00eb takimi im i par\u00eb dhe i fundit me t\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb nuk m\u2019u dha rasti t\u00eb sqaroja m\u00eb pas se \u00e7\u2019donte t\u00eb thoshte. Shpjegimi kishte t\u00eb b\u00ebnte pak a shum\u00eb me lidhjen midis sintagmave n\u00ebn\u00eb dhe terr,sipas t\u00eb cilave, njeriu dilte nga barku i n\u00ebn\u00ebs si nga terri, dhe ky ishte nj\u00eb qerthull i pafund matma, n\u00ebnaterr, ku n\u00ebna, ashtu si terri, mbetej e pazb\u00ebrthyeshme.<\/p>\n Nd\u00ebrsa p\u00ebr lot\u00ebt e n\u00ebn\u00ebs e kisha v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb gjeja shkakun, p\u00ebr m\u00ebrzin\u00eb e saj ishte e kund\u00ebrta. Shkakun e thoshte vet\u00eb, madje me nj\u00eb shprehje q\u00eb, pasi e kisha d\u00ebgjuar gjith\u00eb frik\u00eb her\u00ebn e par\u00eb, sa her\u00eb q\u00eb e kujtoja vazhdonte t\u00eb m\u00eb ngjethte misht\u00eb: \u201cm\u00eb ha sht\u00ebpia!\u201d.<\/p>\n Shum\u00eb shpejt e mora vesh q\u00eb kjo ishte shprehja m\u00eb e zakonshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb se m\u00ebrziteshe n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Mir\u00ebpo kjo nuk m\u00eb pengonte q\u00eb, sipas nj\u00eb xanxe q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte kapur nj\u00ebfar\u00eb kohe p\u00ebr t\u00eb zhbiruar kuptimin e fjal\u00ebve, ta mundoja veten me p\u00ebrfytyrimin se sa e tmerrshm\u2019e ishte kur sht\u00ebpis\u00eb ku banoje mund t\u2019i shkrepej nj\u00eb dit\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00eb hante.<\/p>\n 2 N\u00eb nj\u00eb shikim t\u00eb par\u00eb mund t\u00eb dukej e shpjegueshme: nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb shtat\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00ebvje\u00e7are hynte nuse n\u00eb nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi tep\u00ebr t\u00eb madhe. Donte apo s\u2019donte, mendimi i par\u00eb, qoft\u00eb dhe i t\u00ebrthort\u00eb, do t\u00eb ishte se nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi e till\u00eb k\u00ebrkonte shum\u00eb pun\u00eb. Aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr p\u00ebr nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb q\u00eb, si\u00e7 do ta merrja vesh m\u00eb pas nga tregimet e motrave t\u00eb saj, ishte qortuar shpesh p\u00ebr munges\u00eb zelli p\u00ebr pun\u00eb sht\u00ebpie. E sidomos aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr q\u00eb do t\u00eb ishte nuse e vetme, pa asnj\u00eb shpres\u00eb p\u00ebr nuse t\u00eb dyt\u00eb, ngaq\u00eb im at\u00eb ishte djal\u00eb i vet\u00ebm dhe pa baba.<\/p>\n Sht\u00ebpia, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 e st\u00ebrmadhe, ishte e vjet\u00ebr dhe hijer\u00ebnd\u00eb. E si t\u00eb mos mjaftonte kjo, vjehrra, gjyshja ime e ardhshme, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 namit t\u00eb gruas buz\u00ebholl\u00eb, kishte edhe at\u00eb t\u00eb men\u00e7uris\u00eb. Do t\u00eb duhej t\u00eb kalonte mjaft koh\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb kuptuar arsyen e thell\u00eb se p\u00ebrse name t\u00eb tilla p\u00ebr men\u00e7uri t\u00eb tep\u00ebrt e bezdisnin time m\u00eb.<\/p>\n Kishte gjas\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb dukej se ftoht\u00ebsia e par\u00eb midis nuses s\u00eb re dhe vjehrr\u00ebs t\u00eb ishte shkaktuar nga mosp\u00ebrfillja, ose m\u00eb sakt\u00eb, nga mosmahnitja e nuses prej sht\u00ebpis\u00eb. N\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, shkaku duhej t\u00eb kishte qen\u00eb m\u00eb i thell\u00eb dhe, n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre i pashmangsh\u00ebm.<\/p>\n Dihej se familjet gjirokastrite n\u00eb \u00e7astin q\u00eb lidheshin n\u00eb krushqi, viheshin aty p\u00ebr aty, n\u00eb nj\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb re. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 aleanc\u00ebs s\u00eb natyrshme t\u00eb dy klaneve, n\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb befasuese krijohej nj\u00ebfar\u00eb shurdhimi, sidomos n\u00eb periudh\u00ebn paramartesore. Gjith\u00eb krekosja e njohur e sht\u00ebpive t\u00eb vjetra, sedra, mburrjet, kot\u00ebsia, kishin rast t\u00eb shpaloseshin e t\u00eb viheshin n\u00eb peshore midis dy sht\u00ebpive, q\u00eb do t\u2019i bashkonte kurora e martes\u00ebs. N\u00eb net\u00ebt e gjata t\u00eb dimrit, nuset e ardhshme, e po ashtu dh\u00ebndur\u00ebt, do t\u00eb d\u00ebgjonin gjithfar\u00eb romuzesh p\u00ebr pal\u00ebn tjet\u00ebr, t\u00eb tipit \u201cmos kujtojn\u00eb ata se jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb se ne\u201d e t\u00eb tjera t\u00eb ngjashme. Ishte nj\u00eb lloj lufte e ftoht\u00eb q\u00eb vetvetiu i ngarkonte t\u00eb dy palet, por sidomos nuset dhe vjehrrat e ardhshme, me ndjesi mohuese p\u00ebr nj\u00ebra-tjetr\u00ebn. Me kalimin e viteve, me shum\u00eb v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi do t\u00eb merrja vesh, ose m\u00eb sakt\u00eb do t\u00eb kujtoja se do t\u00eb merrja vesh, kronik\u00ebn e pakuptimt\u00eb t\u00eb kinse m\u00ebris\u00eb midis Kadarenjve dhe Dobat\u00ebve.<\/p>\n Ajo q\u00eb dukej e leht\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u kapur, nd\u00ebrlikohej papritur, aq sa vinte ora kur ngjante krejt\u00ebsisht e pazb\u00ebrthyeshme. Dhe m\u00eb pas e kund\u00ebrta: e mjegullta do t\u00eb qart\u00ebsohej befas, aq sa t\u00eb gjith\u00eb do thoshin, ah, ja \u00e7\u2019na pask\u00ebsh qen\u00eb kjo pun\u00eb q\u00eb ne t\u00eb verbrit s\u2019e shquanim dot.<\/p>\n Ngat\u00ebrresa vinte nga pamund\u00ebsia e \u00e7do krahasimi midis dy klaneve. Niste nga sht\u00ebpit\u00eb, q\u00eb ishin aq t\u00eb ndryshme, saq\u00eb kurrsesi s\u2019mund t\u00eb besohej se i p\u00ebrkisnin t\u00eb nj\u00ebjtit qytet. N\u00eb vend q\u00eb njer\u00ebzit t\u00eb ndreqnin disi drejtpeshimin e prishur mes dy sht\u00ebpive, ata e theksonin edhe m\u00eb fort at\u00eb. Kadarenjt\u00eb dhe Dobat\u00ebt, si\u00e7 do ta merrja vesh m\u00eb pas, ndryshonin nga nj\u00ebri-tjetri m\u00eb fort se sht\u00ebpit\u00eb e tyre. Ndryshimi kryesor q\u00eb binte n\u00eb sy ishte se, nd\u00ebrsa shumica e klanit Dobi ishin n\u00eb jet\u00eb, Kadarenjt\u00eb ishin t\u00eb vdekur. Kur n\u00eb k\u00ebndet e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb gjeja her\u00eb pas here ndonj\u00eb fotografi t\u00eb vjet\u00ebr dhe vrapoja te gjyshja p\u00ebr ta pyetur kush ishte dhe ku ndodhej, p\u00ebrgjigjja e saj m\u00eb zgjonte trishtim n\u00eb shpirt. Po ky k\u00ebtu? e pyesja pas disa dit\u00ebsh, kur gjeja nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr fotografi, dhe p\u00ebrgjigjja ishte e nj\u00ebjt\u00eb: s\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb.<\/p>\n Ndryshimet e tjera, si drur\u00ebt, zogjt\u00eb, violinat e rom\u00ebt, bujqit grek\u00eb t\u00eb ish-pronave t\u00eb babazotit, tezet dhe ungj\u00ebt, nuk ishin t\u00eb pakta, por e keqja ishte se t\u00eb gjitha ato ishin ca gj\u00ebra q\u00eb s\u2019krahasoheshin dot me tonat. A mund t\u00eb krahasohej, p\u00ebr shembull, r\u00ebnia e violin\u00ebs, me dy dhomat ku s\u2019na lejohej t\u00eb hynim ose me hapsan\u00ebn, si\u00e7 quhej burgu? P\u00ebr tezet dhe ungj\u00ebt, p\u00ebr shembull, e kisha mbledhur mendjen se nuk mund t\u00eb kisha, ngaq\u00eb, sipas gjyshes, edhe po t\u00eb ishin do t\u00eb quheshin halla dhe xhaxhallar\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb ishin jo motra dhe v\u00ebllez\u00ebr t\u00eb n\u00ebn\u00ebs, por t\u00eb babait, pra duhej t\u2019i kishte pjell\u00eb gjyshja vet\u00eb. Kukulla (gjithmon\u00eb e m\u00eb tep\u00ebr bindesha se ky cil\u00ebsim ishte p\u00ebrpjekur, n\u00eb mos ta z\u00ebvend\u00ebsonte fjal\u00ebn \u201cmama\u201d, t\u00eb kthehej n\u00eb em\u00ebr t\u00eb dyt\u00eb t\u00eb saj), pra Kukulla, ndon\u00ebse e kishte v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb shprehej qart\u00eb, kishte qen\u00eb pak a shum\u00eb e nd\u00ebrgjegjshme se do t\u00eb p\u00ebrballej me sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e Kadarenjve, me gjith\u00eb ato dritare t\u00eb larta, musandra, hajate, qilar\u00eb t\u00eb fsheht\u00eb, qiellzana prej druri t\u00eb gdhendur, s\u00eb fundi me burgun e famsh\u00ebm dhe me ata emra t\u00eb ting\u00eblluesh\u00ebm: Seit Kadareja, Avdo Kadareja, Shahin Kadareja dhe, m\u00eb t\u00eb d\u00ebgjuarin midis tyre, Ismail Kadaren\u00eb, katragjyshin tim, q\u00eb, si\u00e7 m\u00eb p\u00eblqente ta kujtoja shpesh, ishte b\u00ebr\u00eb i famsh\u00ebm ngaq\u00eb p\u00ebrmendej n\u00eb nj\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00eb, jo se kishte vrar\u00eb turq, si\u00e7 t\u00eb shkonte mendja n\u00eb \u00e7astin e par\u00eb, por p\u00ebr pun\u00eb veshjeje, m\u00eb saMt\u00eb, ndjekje t\u00eb mod\u00ebs.<\/p>\n Kund\u00ebr k\u00ebsaj gumaje k\u00ebrc\u00ebnuese, Kukulla do t\u00eb kishte ushtrin\u00eb e saj t\u00eb drur\u00ebve, t\u00eb zogjve, t\u00eb violinave, t\u00eb motrave e t\u00eb ish-sh\u00ebrb\u00ebtor\u00ebve. N\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb ngjante naive dhe e brisht\u00eb, por kishte edhe ajo t\u00eb fsheht\u00ebn e saj. Kukulla q\u00eb nuk dinte shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, ishte n\u00eb dijeni, me sa dukej, t\u00eb asaj t\u00eb fshehte, q\u00eb mbulohej pas em\u00ebrtimit zhg\u00ebnjyes e t\u00eb r\u00ebndomt\u00eb \u201cgjendje ekonomike\u201d: Dobat\u00ebt ishin t\u00eb kamur, \u00e7ka do t\u00eb thoshte t\u00eb pasur, Kadarenjt\u00eb jo.<\/p>\n N\u00eb asnj\u00ebr\u00ebn nga dy sht\u00ebpit\u00eb nuk p\u00ebrmendej kjo gj\u00eb, thua se kishin b\u00ebr\u00eb marr\u00ebveshje q\u00eb secila pal\u00eb t\u00eb mbante mask\u00ebn e vet. Me at\u00eb mask\u00eb, me paraqitjen kinse t\u00eb p\u00ebrkor\u00eb n\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka, Dobat\u00ebt do t\u00eb mbulonin kamjen e tyre. Dhe t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn gj\u00eb do t\u00eb b\u00ebnin Kadarenjt\u00eb, me mask\u00ebn e tyre, at\u00eb t\u00eb madh\u00ebshtis\u00eb s\u00eb rreme, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbuluar t\u00eb kund\u00ebrt\u00ebn: skamjen.<\/p>\n Aleanca qysh n\u00eb fillimet e saj kishte qen\u00eb e gabuar. Kurse arsyeja e krushqis\u00eb s\u2019ishte marr\u00eb vesh kurr\u00eb.<\/p>\n 3 Sht\u00ebpia e Ficove, p\u00ebrve\u00e7 q\u00eb ishte e madhe, ishte ndoshta m\u00eb e bukura e qytetit, \u00e7ka p\u00ebr disa kishte qen\u00eb dhe arsyeja q\u00eb kishte nxjerr\u00eb, si\u00e7 thuhej, ministrin e Jasht\u00ebm m\u00eb me nam t\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha koh\u00ebrave n\u00eb Shqip\u00ebri. Merrej me mend se sa e leht\u00eb do t\u00eb ishte p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb sht\u00ebpi q\u00eb, pas nj\u00eb nami t\u00eb till\u00eb, t\u2019i jepte emrin e saj rrjedh\u00ebs s\u00eb ujit. Nj\u00eb pjes\u00eb e rrug\u00ebs shkonte p\u00ebrbri saj gjer te sht\u00ebpia e Kako Pinos, e \u00ebnd\u00ebrruar prej krejt nuseve t\u00eb ardhshme t\u00eb qytetit, e vog\u00ebl, lirike e plot vazo lulesh, pothuajse ngjitur me ton\u00ebn. Kurse p\u00ebrball\u00eb portave t\u00eb dy sht\u00ebpive, i shtremb\u00ebr, i mbrapsht\u00eb, i pangjash\u00ebm me asgj\u00eb, niste Sokaku i t\u00eb Marr\u00ebve.<\/p>\n Kukull\u00ebs, q\u00eb nuk ishte pa kureshtje, duhet t\u2019i ken\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje t\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebto. Megjithat\u00eb, p\u00ebrpara t\u00eb panjohurave t\u00eb tjera, ato ngjanin t\u00eb zbehta. Nga tri kureshtit\u00eb e m\u00ebdha q\u00eb e prisnin, burri, sht\u00ebpia dhe vjehrra, kishte gjas\u00eb q\u00eb kjo e fundit t\u00eb ket\u00eb qen\u00eb ajo q\u00eb m\u00eb s\u00eb shumti i fuste frik\u00ebn. Burrin e kishte par\u00eb vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb her\u00eb nga dritarja e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb pak p\u00ebrpara dasm\u00ebs. Fotografin\u00eb e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb saj t\u00eb ardhshme e kishte sjell\u00eb nj\u00eb dite nj\u00eb kush\u00ebri i larg\u00ebt, bashk\u00eb me p\u00ebshp\u00ebrimat q\u00eb thuheshin p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Nd\u00ebr k\u00ebto t\u00eb fundit, m\u00eb e mjegullta ishte \u00e7\u00ebshtja e burgut. Me sa dihej, sht\u00ebpia e Kadarenjve hynte nd\u00ebr kat\u00ebr-pes\u00eb sht\u00ebpit\u00eb e rralla t\u00eb qytetit, q\u00eb kishte burg, \u00e7ka p\u00ebr disa nuk ishte ve\u00e7se nj\u00eb marr\u00ebzi, e p\u00ebr t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt lidhej me ca ide t\u00eb dala mode qyshkur, p\u00ebr pun\u00eb ligjesh, me fjal\u00eb t\u00eb tjera, shteti kishte ligjet e tij, por sht\u00ebpia ato t\u00eb saj, shkurt secili n\u00eb pun\u00eb t\u00eb vet. Mosdalja nga sht\u00ebpia e grave t\u00eb vjetra ishte nj\u00eb nga doket m\u00eb t\u00eb pashpjegueshme t\u00eb qytetit. S\u2019i dihej jo vet\u00ebm shkaku, por as zanafilla apo rasti q\u00eb kishte sh\u00ebrbyer si shkak. Ndodhte nj\u00eb dit\u00eb q\u00eb X grua shpallte se s\u2019do t\u00eb dilte m\u00eb nga porta e sht\u00ebpis\u00eb dhe askush nuk pyeste: pse? apo, si k\u00ebshtu?<\/p>\n Ajo q\u00eb dihej ishte se kjo mosdalje ishte n\u00eb vetvete nj\u00eb lloj statusi, si t\u00eb thuash, ngritje rangu, ose pjes\u00eb e nj\u00eb mondaniteti.<\/p>\n Nuk kam besuar se Kukulla do ta ket\u00eb vrar\u00eb mendjen fort p\u00ebr moskuptimin a kuptimin e thell\u00eb t\u00eb mosdaljes s\u00eb vjehrr\u00ebs (ndoshta thjesht ka menduar se do t\u00eb ishte mir\u00eb q\u00eb ajo t\u00eb dilte sesa t\u00eb ngujohej n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi), kurse n\u00eb m\u00ebngjesin e par\u00eb pas dasm\u00ebs n\u00eb banes\u00ebn e re, nd\u00ebrsa b\u00ebhej gati t\u00eb ngjitej te dhoma e madhe e pritjes, do t\u00eb ket\u00eb ndier me siguri se as katrahura e dasm\u00ebs, as nata e par\u00eb me burrin, por ajo paraqitje p\u00ebrpara juris\u00eb s\u00eb pam\u00ebshirshme t\u00eb krushkave, do t\u00eb ishte krusma m\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb.<\/p>\n Nga Gazeta Bota Sot<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00a0 \u201cN\u00ebnat jan\u00eb qeniet m\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebshtira p\u00ebr t\u2019u kuptuar\u201d Ismail Kadare Fragment nga vepra \u201cKukulla\u201d e shkrimtarit Ismail Kadare. N\u00eb prill t\u00eb vitit 1994, im v\u00eblla na lajm\u00ebroi nga Tirana se n\u00ebna ishte duke dh\u00ebn\u00eb shpirt. U nis\u00ebm t\u00eb dy me Helen\u00ebn, me avionin e par\u00eb nga Parisi, me shpres\u00eb p\u00ebr ta gjetur ende […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9,"featured_media":41987,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[10,35],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-41986","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultura","category-shoqerore"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/auto_781607725385.jpg?fit=850%2C502&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p5Z6wp-aVc","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":21462,"url":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/me-arrestuan-ne-klase-ismail-kadare-hap-zemren-para-jetimeve\/","url_meta":{"origin":41986,"position":0},"title":"\u201cM\u00eb arrestuan n\u00eb klas\u00eb\u201d, Ismail Kadare \u201chap\u201d zemr\u00ebn para jetim\u00ebve. –","author":"Kurt Farka","date":"May 22, 2019","format":false,"excerpt":"\u201cM\u00eb arrestuan n\u00eb klas\u00eb\u201d, Ismail Kadare \u201chap\u201d zemr\u00ebn para jetim\u00ebve 20 Maj, 2019 N\u00eb dit\u00ebn komb\u00ebtare t\u00eb jetim\u00ebve, shkrimtari Ismail Kadare s\u00eb bashku me bashk\u00ebshorten Helen\u00ebn i \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjur ftes\u00ebs p\u00ebr t\u2019i takuar ne nje dalje te rralle. Nuk munguan fjal\u00ebt e ngrohta dhe mesazhi p\u00ebr shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb shqiptare. \u201c E\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit"","block_context":{"text":"Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit","link":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/category\/blogu-i-udhetarit\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/000_Nic6414874-696x464.jpg?fit=696%2C417&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/000_Nic6414874-696x464.jpg?fit=696%2C417&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/05\/000_Nic6414874-696x464.jpg?fit=696%2C417&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":34422,"url":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/nuk-ishte-e-lehte-lamtumira-me-ty-ismail-dhe-helena-kadare-mesazh-te-ndjere-per-maks-velon\/","url_meta":{"origin":41986,"position":1},"title":"\u201dNuk ishte e leht\u00eb lamtumira me ty\u201d, Ismail dhe Helena Kadare, mesazh t\u00eb ndjer\u00eb p\u00ebr Maks Velon","author":"Kurt Farka","date":"May 8, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"\u201dNuk ishte e leht\u00eb lamtumira me ty\u201d, Ismail dhe Helena Kadare, mesazh t\u00eb ndjer\u00eb p\u00ebr Maks Velon 8 maji 2020 Pas ndarjes nga jeta te arkitektit dhe piktorit te njohur Maks Velo, shprehin ngushellimin e tyre nga Parisi, shkrimtari i njohur Ismail Kadare me bashkeshorten e tij Helena, te cilet\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit"","block_context":{"text":"Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit","link":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/category\/blogu-i-udhetarit\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/05\/Maks-Velo-4.jpg?fit=846%2C461&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/05\/Maks-Velo-4.jpg?fit=846%2C461&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/05\/Maks-Velo-4.jpg?fit=846%2C461&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/05\/Maks-Velo-4.jpg?fit=846%2C461&ssl=1&resize=700%2C400 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":82413,"url":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/i-jepet-sot-lamtumira-e-fundit-ismail-kadarese-ne-ceremonine-mortore-shteterore-te-gjeniut-letrar-marrin-pjese-kreret-e-shtetit-e-diplomate\/","url_meta":{"origin":41986,"position":2},"title":"I jepet sot lamtumira e fundit Ismail Kadares\u00eb, n\u00eb ceremonin\u00eb mortore shtet\u00ebrore t\u00eb gjeniut letrar marrin pjes\u00eb krer\u00ebt e shtetit e diplomat\u00eb!","author":"Kurt Farka","date":"July 3, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"3 Korrik 2024 Shqip\u00ebria prej 2 dit\u00ebsh \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb zi komb\u00ebtare. 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Kadare do t\u00eb p\u00ebrcillet dit\u00ebn e sotme p\u00ebr n\u00eb banes\u00ebn e fundit\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit"","block_context":{"text":"Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit","link":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/category\/blogu-i-udhetarit\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/auto_Ismail-Kadare-31719823189.jpg?fit=900%2C588&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/auto_Ismail-Kadare-31719823189.jpg?fit=900%2C588&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/auto_Ismail-Kadare-31719823189.jpg?fit=900%2C588&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/auto_Ismail-Kadare-31719823189.jpg?fit=900%2C588&ssl=1&resize=700%2C400 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":82378,"url":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/berisha-dielli-perendoi-pergjithmone-per-gjeniun-boteror-te-letrave-ismail-kadare\/","url_meta":{"origin":41986,"position":3},"title":"Berisha: Dielli per\u00ebndoi p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb p\u00ebr gjeniun bot\u00ebror t\u00eb letrave, Ismail Kadare","author":"Kurt Farka","date":"July 1, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"1 Korrik 2024 Ish-kryeministri Sali Berisha iu \u00ebsht\u00eb bashkuar reagimeve p\u00ebr ndarjen nga jeta t\u00eb kolosit t\u00eb letrave, Ismail Kadare. 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Berisha thekson se n\u00eb koh\u00ebrat m\u00eb t\u00eb err\u00ebta t\u00eb regjimit hoxhist kur\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit"","block_context":{"text":"Blogu i Udh\u00ebtarit","link":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/category\/blogu-i-udhetarit\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/640-0-berisha-1719829129.jpg?fit=640%2C428&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/640-0-berisha-1719829129.jpg?fit=640%2C428&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/640-0-berisha-1719829129.jpg?fit=640%2C428&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":30564,"url":"https:\/\/www.shqiperia.com\/blog\/historia-e-panjohur-si-u-rrezikua-ismail-kadare-nga-banda-e-lushnjes-nje-sasi-tritoli-ishte-vendosur-ne\/","url_meta":{"origin":41986,"position":4},"title":"Historia e panjohur, si u rrezikua Ismail Kadare nga Banda e Lushnj\u00ebs. 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\nN\u00ebna, pavar\u00ebsisht se mund t\u00eb dukej e pazb\u00ebrthyeshme p\u00ebr shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, nuk e fshihte se sht\u00ebpia jon\u00eb nuk i p\u00eblqente aspak.<\/p>\n
\nNisur nga kjo, mund t\u00eb thuhej se do t\u00eb tregonte apo jo n\u00ebna ime e ardhshme shp\u00ebrfilljen e saj ndaj sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb Kadarenjve, apo do t\u00eb tregohej buz\u00ebholl\u00eb a jo gjyshja ime ndaj saj, ftoht\u00ebsia midis tyre s\u2019mund t\u00eb shmangej.<\/p>\n
\nSa \u00e7\u2019ishte e vjet\u00ebr dhe hijer\u00ebnd\u00eb sht\u00ebpia jon\u00eb, aq nuk ishte e till\u00eb ajo e babazotit, si\u00e7 quhej gjyshi nga n\u00ebna. Ishte e madhe, po s\u2019kishte as qilar\u00eb t\u00eb thell\u00eb, as stem\u00eb, as shkalla trillane prej druri, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mos folur p\u00ebr dhoma t\u00eb pabanuara, p\u00ebr burg, n\u00ebnkalime t\u00eb fshehta, mesore apo n\u00ebnmesore (n\u00ebndivane) pa kuptim. Sht\u00ebpia e Dobat\u00ebve ishte ndoshta e till\u00eb ngaq\u00eb ishte e ve\u00e7uar, pa lagje apo rrug\u00eb, q\u00eb, n\u00eb nj\u00ebfar\u00eb m\u00ebnyre do ta detyronin t\u00eb ngjante me t\u00eb tjerat. Ishte n\u00eb nj\u00eb zon\u00eb t\u00eb zbraz\u00ebt, p\u00ebrbri k\u00ebshtjell\u00ebs dhe nj\u00eb p\u00ebrroi t\u00eb rr\u00ebmbyesh\u00ebm. N\u00eb munges\u00eb t\u00eb fsheht\u00ebsive, ajo kishte nj\u00eb truall t\u00eb gjer\u00eb, q\u00eb mund t\u00eb merrej p\u00ebr kopsht dhe nj\u00eb n\u00ebnsht\u00ebpiz\u00eb midis truallit, q\u00eb quhej odajasht\u00eb dhe ku banonte nj\u00eb familje rom\u00ebsh, sh\u00ebrbyes t\u00eb dikursh\u00ebm t\u00eb sht\u00ebpis\u00eb.<\/p>\n
\n(M\u00eb von\u00eb, kur t\u00eb dy ungj\u00ebt shkuan p\u00ebr studime jasht\u00eb shtetit, njeri n\u00eb Budapest e tjetri n\u00eb Mosk\u00eb, mungesa e t\u00eb ngjashm\u00ebve te ne, m\u00eb shum\u00eb se me ata vet\u00eb, lidhej me letrat q\u00eb vinin prej tyre nga larg. N\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb ton\u00eb nuk vinin letra nga askush dhe kjo m\u00eb dukej e natyrshme, ngaq\u00eb dihej se t\u00eb vdekurit s\u2019d\u00ebrgonin t\u00eb tilla.)<\/p>\n
\nSado q\u00eb jam p\u00ebrpjekurt\u00eb p\u00ebrfytyroj mb\u00ebrritjen e Kukull\u00ebs nuse n\u00eb vitin 1933, n\u00eb sht\u00ebpin\u00eb e burrit, nuk kam arritur dot. Kishte gjithmon\u00eb nj\u00eb penges\u00eb, nj\u00eb r\u00ebnie mjegulle, ose n\u00eb rr\u00eb- fimin e saj, ose n\u00eb p\u00ebrfytyrimin tim. Pengesa niste qysh nga vet\u00eb rruga e p\u00ebrshkuar. Nuk e kisha v\u00ebshtir\u00eb ta sillja me mend karvanin e krushqve nga sht\u00ebpia e babazotit tek udha e madhe n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebt e k\u00ebshtjell\u00ebs, e m\u00eb pas te qendra e qytetit \u201cQafa e Pazarit\u201d, p\u00ebr t\u00eb zbritur n\u00eb rrug\u00ebn e pjerr\u00ebt t\u00eb Varoshit. Pik\u00ebrisht te sht\u00ebpia e Dr. Vasil Labovitit, atje ku m\u00eb 1943 do t\u00eb shtrohej nj\u00eb dark\u00eb e pakuptueshme me gjerman\u00ebt, niste, bashk\u00eb me rrug\u00ebn q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7onte te sht\u00ebpia jon\u00eb, surrealizmi. Sht\u00ebpia e do- ktorit, vajz\u00ebn e t\u00eb cilit e kisha n\u00eb klas\u00eb, ishte e para. M\u00eb tutje ishte sht\u00ebpia \u00ea Pavli Ur\u00ebs, nj\u00eb shoku tjet\u00ebr t\u00eb klas\u00ebs, mbiemri i t\u00eb cilit vinte nga nj\u00eb ur\u00eb, e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ose e rreme, nuk kuptohej, q\u00eb ishte posht\u00eb saj. N\u00ebt\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb ishte nj\u00eb rrjedh\u00eb e madhe uji, q\u00eb dilte nga nj\u00eb drejtim, por ur\u00eb nuk kishte asgj\u00ebkund, madje as vet\u00eb Pavli Ura s\u2019dinte si ta shpjegonte mbiemrin e vet. Nd\u00ebr- kaq, disa hapa m\u00eb tutje, mu p\u00ebrpara sht\u00ebpis\u00eb s\u00eb Ficove, rrjedha e ujit nd\u00ebrronte em\u00ebrtim dhe nga \u201cur\u00eb\u201d b\u00ebhej \u201cP\u00ebrroi i Ficos\u201d.<\/p>\n
\nEnigma e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb p\u00ebr Kukull\u00ebn mbetej vjehrra. P\u00ebrve\u00e7 asaj q\u00eb p\u00ebrmblidhej n\u00eb ijal\u00ebt e pam\u00ebshirshme: e men\u00e7ur dhe buz\u00eb- holl\u00eb, ishte nj\u00eb ve\u00e7anti e tret\u00eb, dalja ose jo nga sht\u00ebpia, hamendjet p\u00ebr t\u00eb cil\u00ebn nuk ishin fort t\u00eb qarta. Ishte krijuar bindja se, edhe n\u00ebse zonja m\u00ebm\u00eb e Kadarenjve nuk e kishte shpallur ende moskap\u00ebrcimin e port\u00ebs, ishte n\u00eb p\u00ebrgatitje e sip\u00ebr.<\/p>\n